Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Happy Workaholic
After less than two hours of sleep, shooting, visiting the first six Casting Directors, auditioning, submitting, spending four hours writing e-mails about my career and still finding excuses not to go to bed, I'm starting to ask myself if I am a victim of the workaholism syndrome.
Even though I'm still not doing what I really want (working on characters and shooting professional projects) I have to say this business of acting thing can be really frustrating and fun at the same time, at least it is addictive. I swear I wish so bad I wouldn't get tired so I wouldn't have to sleep and that my stomach wouldn't yell at me reminding me to eat. I feel I can't waste a single second right now. And I get bored talking about anything that has no connection to this business and about the things about this business that I've heard more than five times.
Yes, I know I'm not healthy and I know I'm not right, I know it's terrible to my body and awful to my mind, but I am thrilled, I feel good, I am happy! And my head is shutting me up every other second while this thing inside me keeps waking me up to do all and more that's left on my list.
Maybe not making time to stop and appreciate the little (and even the big) pleasures in life is an excuse not to face some fears. If I stopped right now, I would simply break down. I am probably one of the most scared people on earth at the moment. So I am happy if I am crazy busy... Until all this non-stop work starts leading to results and destroying the fears.
I hope it does.
posted by Ana @ 12:05 AM
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August 12, 2008 11:53 AM ,
Sarah said...
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I totally TOTALLY understand the feeling you just wrote down on the page! Crazy how we're all like that.
Are we workaholics or is it just driven? I mean we've got to make it happen for us somehow? To bad there's no easy path.
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August 20, 2008 12:56 PM ,
Katie Coffman said...
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Man...I don't think I know anyone else who's as busy as you. That's so cool though! You can't not do what you want if you're working so hard.
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