Sunday, August 31, 2008
Two Weeks Left
OMG!!!- Keep doing what I can for my career (meet and keep in touch with CDs, audition, shoot...)
- Send my packages to Portugal
- Sell all my stuff
- Farewell dinners
...Weird.
posted by Ana @ 2:57 AM
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Monday, August 25, 2008
A Victim for Every Taste
True Hollywood Story Investigates: Serial Killers
I play the victims in five reenactments.
September 12th on E! Entertainment Television
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
If you have any interest in me having a good first impression of you...
DON'T ASK ME WHERE I AM FROM AFTER MY FIRST SENTENCE!!!
I think it's very nice to compliment the Australian and British actors when they are able to do a standard American accent... Yes, I'm jealous. But also begging for some understanding... It's not as hard for them, they all speak the same language! I can switch from my Azorean accent to the standard Portuguese accent and to the Brazilian accent easily too... When we are dealing with the language we grew up hearing everyday for more than twenty years it's obviously not that difficult to switch some sounds, not only because you are totally comfortable with the sentence structure and familiar with almost all the words, but also because you know which sounds in your accent sound differently from the other accent- and you know it naturally, without having to write down pronunciation codes and memorizing them.
Did you know that in Portuguese the "i" sounds like your "e" and that's why we make words like "idiot" sound "eedeeot"? And did you know that 99,99% of the Portuguese people think your "i" is also pronounced "áí" when apparently it should be closer to "əɪ" in words like "like", "night", "find"... Just an example. Fascinating, right? And don't get me started with the "th"! And the "z" and the "v" and the "l"... But the "r" will always be the worst.
Just give me some credit pəlíz!
posted by Ana @ 11:26 PM
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Updates
1) Partially accomplished1.1) Accomplished
1.2) Defined design; still waiting for the good quality photos
1.3) Accomplished- Film and Theatre reel; Waiting for some footage to finish the Music Video reel
1.4) Accomplished
2) Accomplished- and the shoot went great
3) Accomplished- I was called in for an audition with on of the CDs!
4) Postponed to Monday and Wednesday (much more than 5 offices)
5) Accomplished- "You have to be in the right place at the right time"... Really?! Duh!
6) Accomplished- so much fun!
7) Accomplished- forget the yoga, I'll just dance!
8) Extra events:
8.1) Another shoot for the THS Investigates: Serial Killers episode
8.2) Three amazing accent reduction classes
8.3) My teaser is online!
8.4) Goodbye dinner, lunch, presents, meetings... :(
8.5) Two short-films shoots
New week, new goals!... Watch my episode, no blogging this time :P
posted by Ana @ 10:30 PM
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
Agenda
So not having much time requires extreme organization...
Goals for this week
1) Get 10 to 15 packages ready to mail to Portuguese agencies/ managers/ directors, which will include:
1.1) Headshots and resumes
1.2) Postcards with my last photos and projects
1.3) Reels- film, theatre (finish it), music videos (edit)
1.4) Cover letter
2) Prepare my character for the shoot on Friday
3) Go to 2 CD workshops and be great
4) Go to at least 5 more CD offices
5) Talk to SAG background CDs to see if there is a (fast) way to get my vouchers
6) Go out on Wednesday with the Verge girls
7) Work out- ouch!
Good luck for me!
posted by Ana @ 8:01 PM
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Stop!
Can anyone destroy all the watches in the world?
Can the angriest person break them into pieces?
Can the hottest guy melt them down?
Can the most heartbroken woman make time turn back?
Can the scariest villain corrupt the clocks' mechanism?
Or can an honest person assure me I have no need to be scared of the future?
I'm so confused right now. The only thing I know for sure is that I am happy. But the reason why isn't rational. Is the happiness sincere when you have no clue about your future? Or is it just a an illusion that may vanish tomorrow?
When I was younger I used to feel like this every time before I was going to travel. But the time it was stronger than ever was when I finished college. The relief. The expectation. And that month that I still had left before my dream became a day to day life fight. I agree that when something great is going to happen, the best part is the the period before it happens, those days you can't think about anything else but how happy you are gonna be for a little while.
So I got my law degree and could finally start planning my trip to LA but had no idea about what I was going to find or how much I'd like it here. I just knew I had to come. And those last days that I had left to be with my friends, family and boyfriend in my country were the happiest days of my life. I was so scared and happy. Now it's similar. I'm leaving LA, I have my plans to accomplish when I get back to Portugal and I have one month left here. And, surprisingly, this is the time I find myself doing more for my career. Sometimes I ask myself why, since I'm leaving. But people would also ask me why I kept investing on my relationship before I came here. There are things that may not make sense, but you fight for them because you just love them too much. Maybe someday you'll find out it was worth it.
If before I was devastated to leave the people I love and excited to pursuit my goals, now I'm excited because I'm about to see everybody and devastated to leave everything I have already accomplished for my career. I guess this expectation of something so wonderful as hugging my parents, my sister, my friends and seeing my ex-boyfriend, together with the hope that things may go well, justifies the way I'm feeling.
I just wanted time to stop because I'm afraid it will all go wrong. I'm afraid that I'll regret going back after taking the huge step of starting a new life here. I'm afraid people aren't the same because I wasn't there when their lives were changing and that they won't understand me. I'm afraid my parents won't accept that this is what I wanna do, that they will pressure me to be a lawyer or journalist or to work in a bank and that I will have to disappoint them by not doing what they would like me to do. I'm afraid that I'm too "something" for the Portuguese entertainment industry. I'm afraid it will take me too long to renew my Visa.
I'm scared. But I'll stick to the happiness until the moment of truth comes.
posted by Ana @ 3:15 PM
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Friday, August 15, 2008
Finally...
After spending over a year working on the same monologue and using it at auditions and workshops, I finally did it the way I've always wanted. I could finally make the audience laugh and I loved how that reaction led me to the most sincere dramatic performance I've ever experienced. It's incredible how the feedback feeds me sooo much.
So after a not so productive day, I'm glad I went to this amazing Casting Director workshop with Gina Gallego, who works with Randi Hiller. She is the most energetic person I've ever met in this kind of environment and gives great tips to make our work better. That's actually one of the reasons why I felt so good about my monologue: not only I believed that my choices finally worked but, most importantly, she made me see that there is still a lot to be done. And I'm excited to keep working on this piece.
I had worked on it with some different people, I had tried to do it as a comedy, then as a drama, I got caught in line readings for a long time, then I tried to incorporate what I learned at Nick Anderson's workshops and I finally just think that my life is allowing me to really live it.
When the monologue's story hadn't happened to me, I guess I was just too scared of really imagining it and going there. Then it happened and it was just way too hard to go there. Now that I've been thru the most difficult part and that my private life expectations are more positive, I just use my old feelings without fear.
It hurts for a little bit, but when you realize you can control that pain in order to use it only when you need it, it feels really good.
That's what acting is about, right?
posted by Ana @ 3:34 AM
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Psycho Killer/ Qu'est-ce que c'est?
These were the three characters I played yesterday on the show True Hollywood Story Investigates: Serial Killers. After a creepy drive to the buggy Franklin Canyon Park, I was strangled five times, shot ten times and finally stabbed twenty times by an unknown serial killer from the 80’s. I have to admit although all that action led to postponing an OnTheVerge meeting, it was kind of fun. And it seems that they wanna kill me again this Monday. No worries, I will survive.
This episode will basically show the reenactments of several murders and for that they only need to shoot the actions. So what I had to be really good at was the body language, the emotions and expressions didn't matter at all in this shoot. I just think it's a shame that you won't have the chance to actually see astonishing faces like this one on TV...
posted by Ana @ 12:59 AM
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Happy Workaholic
After less than two hours of sleep, shooting, visiting the first six Casting Directors, auditioning, submitting, spending four hours writing e-mails about my career and still finding excuses not to go to bed, I'm starting to ask myself if I am a victim of the workaholism syndrome.
Even though I'm still not doing what I really want (working on characters and shooting professional projects) I have to say this business of acting thing can be really frustrating and fun at the same time, at least it is addictive. I swear I wish so bad I wouldn't get tired so I wouldn't have to sleep and that my stomach wouldn't yell at me reminding me to eat. I feel I can't waste a single second right now. And I get bored talking about anything that has no connection to this business and about the things about this business that I've heard more than five times.
Yes, I know I'm not healthy and I know I'm not right, I know it's terrible to my body and awful to my mind, but I am thrilled, I feel good, I am happy! And my head is shutting me up every other second while this thing inside me keeps waking me up to do all and more that's left on my list.
Maybe not making time to stop and appreciate the little (and even the big) pleasures in life is an excuse not to face some fears. If I stopped right now, I would simply break down. I am probably one of the most scared people on earth at the moment. So I am happy if I am crazy busy... Until all this non-stop work starts leading to results and destroying the fears.
I hope it does.
posted by Ana @ 12:05 AM
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