Ana

Since I got here my day to day life has changed a lot, not only because I'm now living in a different place (I'm actually quite used to move around), but mostly because I had to adjust to a totally different routine. First, I'm working out several hours a day, which means tons of discipline and also that I've been wearing sweatpants, tennis shoes, ponytail, no make-up and no earrings every single day. Besides, I'm for sure the less physically trained person here- since I left my yoga class eight years ago, I only had some light dance classes now and then- so there's a huge amount of work to be done, even when all my muscles hurt like hell. 

Second, I have a roommate. I'd been living by myself for more than six years, so it is a little weird. She's really nice, the problem is just that I'm paranoid that there's gonna be some stupid problem sooner or later. But what actually scares me about living with someone else (especially someone who doesn't know me) is that I recognize I'm not a good person to live with. I'm not tidy, I take too long in the bathroom and I'm always worried about all I have to do, so I hate useless talk. But I'm a nice girl and I'm doing my best to be a cool roommate. Even though I finish rehearsals exhausted, I still find some strength to hang out with her and some of the other actors. It looks like there are some really interesting people in the group, but I've been strangely speechless lately. It could be because I'm not comfortable yet or because I've been really tired; anyway, I know I'm not bad at random talk when it's necessary. I'm not sure what's happening, but it might have to do with the fact that my head is a little messy right now. Rehearsals have brought up some things about me that are too hard to accept, because they go against who I want to be or who I think I should be. Those truths may be a great instrument to use in my acting though, so I hope I'll be brave enough to talk about them someday. 

I also decided to use the standard Portuguese accent instead of my natural Azorean accent during these months because I seriously need to get used to talking like the mainland people. I'm trying hard not to be flirty too, this is a professional project and I have to deserve to be here. Finally, I'm always ten minutes early to rehearsals and I eat at regular times. 

Believe me, all these are huge changes in my life, but there's nowhere else I'd rather be at the moment.