Sunday, February 1, 2009

On And On... And On

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I've always complained too much. I used to be one of those annoying kids who would say they hadn't studied enough and that the test had gone terribly, but then I would get the highest grade. I still talk like everything around me is a horror movie, but the truth is I'm a very positive person. 

Most of the time I complain because I'm truly angry and need to let the negative energies out, but I have to admit sometimes I do it because I wanna control what people think about me. For instance, even when I know something I did was great, I'd rather talk about the mistakes I made in the meanwhile. There are people who can't deal with other people's success, so I guess I don't want those who haven't had the chance to work on that to say I'm arrogant or whatever they make up.

Besides putting myself down most of the times, I usually want people to believe I really mean everything I say, so if I said I'm gonna be an Oscar-winning actress, it should've been out of the question that I was OK about leaving LA. So I posted about how sad I was because my Visa was expiring soon and I'd have to leave. Anyway, the Oscar is still my goal, but if you want me to be brutally honest, I was dying to come back to Portugal. First, I needed to be with my family so so bad; second, I knew I wouldn't move on emotionally if I didn't talk to my ex face to face; and finally, I do wanna give my country a chance. I wanna see if it's also possible to do what I love here, I wanna built a career here. I wanna have that place I can always come back to, where the people I love the most are and where there will be parts for me when things don't go well in the U.S. Now it's time to work on that. While I wait for my new Visa, I wanna make my country want me. 

The bad news is, there isn't much happening acting wise in Portugal. I got here four months ago and this is the picture:
- I got four replies to the ten packages I sent the day I left LA, which led to signing with two great agencies and an image test for the biggest TV production company 
- I e-mailed 80 film directors, got 8 answers and some of them were really nice, but there are hundreds of directors and producers I still wanna e-mail
- I had three auditions and booked all of them: a music video I refused to do, a short-film I will shoot this weekend and the two professional theatre shows I've been working on during this Artist in Residence Program (I'm a working actress until April! Yay!)
- I'm waiting for the next soap operas' auditions (I heard there will be some in May)
- I shot three commercials some companies are trying to sell, here is one of them:

I'm basically saying his fingers are incredible... 

posted by Ana @ 6:07 PM |

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At February 2, 2009 12:06 PM , Blogger tonta said...

Duh! Quem é esse gajo?

 
At February 2, 2009 12:23 PM , Blogger tonta said...

Não sei como é que te hei-de explicar que não se perdem meses e anos da nossa vida profissional (que é com ela que nos sentimos compensados e é nela que nos devemos sentir realizados) a fazer coisas secundárias que podem ser vistas como um hobby ou uma coisa acessória para a carreira, não o que é importante, o que é fundamental.
Por isso é que há profissões especialzadas nas nossas mais variadas necessidades e é a elas que devemos recorrer porque por muito bem que o consigamos fazer, nunca o faremos tão bem como quem faz só isso e perdemos imenso tempo.
Como por exemplo o tempo que perdeste com o reel e agora o tempo que queres perder a apender espanhol e francês por causa de poderes enviar curriculuns. Vais a uma firma de tradutores e eles fazem-te isso. E depois se fizeres algum trabalho em que seja indispensável falares e escreveres espanhol e francês, hás-de aprender nessa altura porque já faz parte do teu trabalho.
Entendido?
Não sei como é que vai ser se te continuares a dispersar assim.

 
At February 2, 2009 3:04 PM , Blogger Ana said...

Tens razão mamis... é só para não vos pedir mais dinheiro para pagar os profissionais especializados :P Tou exausta ***

 
At February 2, 2009 3:28 PM , Blogger Sassy Mohen said...

what is this a commercial for? Can you send me a .mov of it so I can put it on the Verge Girls videos??? On our youtube?

Also I know what you mean about things and saying what they're not. I say I had to move last summer, but really I wanted to so badly! so things just seem to work out even if we dont want to admit it!

 
At February 2, 2009 5:44 PM , Blogger Ana said...

I'm gonna try to get the .mov! :)

 

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