Ana

I don't remember having as much fun shopping as I did the last few days. I believe there are two confessionals where I actually mention that I don't mind shopping, that it's usually boring and frustrating. But now I understand I said it because I really didn't remember how exciting it can be and how it can totally put you in the greatest mood. I think that happened because I hadn't spent some long hours shopping for myself for almost three years. The two years that I lived in LA, I would only go shopping when I was playing a character who needed something specific- and obviously I would borrow the clothes from the characters later on, but still, it's not the same. There are two other reasons why this time shopping was so amusing. First, winter dresses are fashionable now and I'm stupidly crazy about all kinds of dresses. Then, everything was really really cheap- I bought twenty pieces for less than three hundred dollars! And that includes jeans, jackets, dresses and more. Well... I think it's amazing! I have to confess I'm not a quality freak though. I don't care if the material isn't very good as long as I can wear it, let's say, more than ten times? But the goal is not to use the same clothes year after year, you have to get tired of them (I did, that's why I didn't even bother when I had to leave all my winter clothes in LA). So, for me, quantity wins over quality when we talk about clothes. And, yes, I do wonder if I'd be a happier woman if I had the same theory about men. 

Now a funny thing: I had my first facial laser treatment at 25! Ahahah! How Hollywoodish does that sound?! I always said: "After I shoot my first big movie, I'll spend my earnings taking this stupid red vein out of my nose!". I had this broken capillary since I was a teenager and I hated it cause everyone would think it was a pimple on my nose- as if the ones I had on the rest of my face weren't enough! Now that I took it out and wanna show everybody, everybody tells me they had never noticed it! In fact, I had been using at least three layers of foundation to disguise it for more than a year, but I always thought it was still visible. For the camera it was, believe me. It's such a tiny ridiculous thing, but I feel prettier just because I don't have it anymore. I truly do. It was less than 2 mm in diameter, but I'm a girl. And the best part is: the laser treatment was free! I had waited so long cause I thought I needed a lot of money to remove that annoying blemish and two months ago my mother told me that she had a dermatologist friend who would do it for free. Better late than later!

As soon as I arrived to Lisbon, I decided I'd redecorate my bedroom. Rule #1: color-coordinated (of course!) but also extremely colorful. Rule #2: no memories. I love the way it looks now- it's a shame I'm not gonna be sleeping there for a while. It has lots of space, but the hot colors (pink, orange, green and purple) make it really cozy and lively. I got rid of the desk and the shelves with my boring law books, as well I put all the posters, drawings and pictures in a drawer. I've just started a brand new period in my life, nothing is like it used to be, not even me. There's no time to miss the past, only to fight for new things. And my bedroom has to remind me of that.

Going out with my friends lately has been so refreshing. Going to the theatre, dancing, watching movies, drinking alcohol, drinking tea... whatever. I love being with them. And another thing that has been hilarious to notice is that some of the guys I used to find quite attractive and that had never showed any interest look suddenly kind of fascinated by me. Maybe it's just curiosity about the "Hollywood girl", or maybe Hollywood made me more aware of my power. Anyway, it feels good. And I appreciate your interest, guys, but I'm a career woman now.

I should do my nails.

Looking at the streets

Touching the steering wheel

Listening to Waiting for Godot (the CD)

Smelling the opportunity

Tasting a smile