Thursday, May 14, 2009
Superstition
Somehow in the midst of everything I've managed to stay afloat. I haven't really hid the fact I'm very unhappy right now. I suppose it's to be expected with the loss of a friend. At least I'm better than I was when I first found out about Elise.
It's weird to think of a concept of someone being gone. Non-existant. No longer capable of being talked too. I can't really wrap my head around it. I wish that Elise was here so that I could talk to her about death and all these big philosophical ideas, she would be the person i would talk to about this.
I always felt like I abandoned her when I moved to California. I feel like I abandoned a few people when I did that. Maybe that's where my guilt comes from. I wish that she was still here so I could talk to her.
The funeral was a mess. Or maybe I was just a mess. Crying and crying. I cried all through my speech I made about her. No one else cried through their speechs. Well there was only 4 other people, one was the head of the psych department at JMU where she went to school, he gave her parents her diploma.
I've stared writing my next script which I'm dedicating to her. I just wish I didn't have too.
posted by Sassy Mohen @ 4:38 PM
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May 21, 2009 12:15 PM ,
Cathy said...
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Hi Sassy. I am a very "old" friend of your parents, Peter and Bev. We actually shared a house with them for a few years. Please ask your mom if she remembers Cathy and Will. You can contact me at catherineocasio@gmail.com.
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